Just a reminder. If I was involved in a coma and still has chance to live, don't wake me up. I dont even have any sense to live. I want to die. I just wont wake up. It's my will.

I can feel everything stabbing through my heart when im taking all the blames.
I had enough. I am tired. I want to die.
Dad, I wanna die.
Do you know how much I've cried?
I really want to yell your name.
I really want to text you when I can't sleep.
I really want to talk to you about what's going on school.
I wanna tell you about my life.
I texted you because I miss you.
You never abandon me like everyone else do.
Dont you miss me dad? You have missed some part of my life. I really really miss you.
You know how a cry baby I am .
When I start crying, I just cant stop
Moreover when you comforting me.
But its good knowing somebody care bout you.
The one that will advice my bro for not humiliating ne is you. So how come I hate you? The one that appreciating me is you, so how do I hate you? I dont care if it is a lie, I will never hate you even if you lie on my face.
Because now no body care bout me.
Lol, how funny I am.
Doing everything for everyone. At last, they treated me like garbage.
O Allah, do you, too?
I am calling for your help.
I am sick. I can feel it.
Please destroy this feeling.
Send someone to help me please.....
And I need my daddy more than anything.
O Allah, help, please.
I cant go through this alone.

Do you ever feels this?
When you are willing to die more than willing to live.
When you want the time to stop, so you can leave.
When you dont care about the day and night.
And you turns older and waiting for a knight.
But a knight dear is just a dreamt.
Cause no body gonna safe you from your own dream.

Im sorry dad, im such a mess.
I wouldnt choose me either.

Sorrg for troubling

I used to take the blame and endure it, but why at this time I can't? It's like im exploding. I can't bear it anymore. Hey manusia, ada la empathy sikit

Dad,
 When the world against me, do you still defend me like before?
 Will you kept hiding me behind your back when someone want to punish me?
 Will you still hug me when im at my lowest.
 Will you still wipe my tears and cry with me?
 Will you still always be there for me?
 I know you've been through a lot , but so I am.
 I promise you, this hand, that you hold everytime she is at her lowest , will hold your hand back in your hard time.
Because what I want is to be your little daughter forever.
I miss you daddy.
All the times that we had together will carve in my mind like forever.
Dad, do you know how heartbroken I am?
How hard I've tried to mend all pieces?
But the love for you can't really be erased.
Because at last I know, the one that will apreciate even little thing that I do is you, father.
And for appreciating me, thank you,.
I LOVE YOU!


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